“If I had you for just one night, all mine, I’d let you know just how much love I have for you locked away for all these years. I’ve watched you succeed, I’ve watched you hurt and I could do nothing but watch until just recently. I won’t ever let that happen again. If I had you for one night id have my name slipping off your tongue in sweet moans of ecstasy, I’d give you everything I’ve been holding back, you would know just how much you mean to me, Rin.” (Sousukes-red-room)
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— With each word coming from Sousuke’s mouth, his eyes widen in shock. But as the other continued to talk, Rin could feel unsheded tears begin to form in his eyes, he had to bite his lip to prevent any dumb, embarrassing noises from escaping as he wanted to hear every single thought of what Sousuke wanted. He could feel his heart racing, almost to the point of aching as he never thought Sousuke felt so deeply for him. He knew his best friend held his feelings, thoughts within himself and rarely expressed them, unless he, himself, had to pull it out of him.
Sousuke was one to never indulge into anything, unless he was asked to. He should’ve known. The way he was stare at him with such a soft expression that he never does to anyone else; the way he was always followed, the way he always agreed to do whatever Rin asked.
But this…this was completely new to him and just thinking about how long he held his feelings deep inside for so long, his chest felt like it was being constructed, he could barely breath.
He grabbed the front of Sousuke’s shirt, before leaning forward, resting his forehead against the other’s chest; tears cascading down his face, a few sobs escaping from his lips.
“I…idiot. Why didn’t you tell me about this before?”
He then looked up, placing his hands to caress and cup the boy that meant the world to him; the one that always stood by him, despite everything they went through. His red eyes staring over soft teal, seeing those thoughts being shown into such beautiful eyes.
“You mean everything to me, I always felt that you were the closest to me out of everyone I know. You know this right? I know I haven’t been the best friend you deserve and I want to make it up to you. Like this….like how you want me to be with you. I want this too, I want to give you all of myself, my thoughts, my feelings, my body. Sousuke….can we?”
//I’m not crying, you’re crying
Sousuke moved his hands down to sit gently on Rin’s hips. “What are you even asking for? I would do anything for you, Rin.” His eyes are glossy, wet with unshed tears. Still he’s trying to be strong for Rin like he always has. “I never said anything before because I didn’t want to get in the way of your dreams. I know you had plans for yourself, and if those plans didn’t involve me, then I didn’t want to be in the way.” He looks into Rin’s eyes and brings both hands up to thumb away the tears on his cheeks. “Don’t cry, Rin.”
He makes himself a hypocrite and sheds his first tear, immediately wiping it away. “Hah, I never thought I’d cry in front of you, at least not since I scraped my knee in middle school.” Sousuke laughs at the memory but Rin’s face is still sad and wanting. “Rin…” he leans into him, one hand craddling the back of Rin’s head now as he kisses his best friend for the first time. He had dreamt of this moment, and for it to become a reality made Sousuke kiss Rin a little harder, just to make sure it’s real.
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